My concerns, at least for now, mainly surround my personal growth and global warming. About my personal growth, there are “How to lengthen my inspiration?” and “How to stay strong and not be absorbed into people’s feelings?”. And about global warming, not only I want to make sure that people acknowledge that it is happening, but I also want to try my best to contribute in helping rein this dangerous trend.
Firstly, that is the question “How to lengthen my inspiration?”. It is very easy for me to be attracted by many diverse things, ranging from sports, animals, stars, psychology,… to anime/ manga, warships, rockets, robots,… And I am able to jump straight from sudden interested to obsessed and bored in a nick of time. Countless times, I even have lost interest before I actually do anything. Or I may sway from this to that then complaint about not having enough time or what to do first. I do make a list but the things I can grow attraction or curiousity in are increasing uncontrollably days by days. The longer the list becomes, the harder for me to keep track and easier to forget. After that, I will end up in 2 situations. The first one is I feel so empty and complain that I do not have anything to do. The second one is that I am tired because there are so many things to do, which I should do first and whether I forgot something in my “to-do list”. Both consequences are the same: I do not do anything productive. This is my main concern because I understand human’s time on Earth is limited, especially the youth, while we are young and strong and idealistic. I do not intend to waste time by just sitting there doing nothing, and yet, all I have done is just playing around. Therefore, I consider this is my weakness and want to overcome it. Also, I realize that, my inspiration is similar to a flame. The more vigorously it burns, the faster it died out. Maintaining it longer is crucial if i want to be successful, or at lest not wasting my time and my mind into nothing.
Secondly, as I mentioned in my other posts, I often get stuck in feelings, regardless of those emotions coming from people or from the things I read or heard. For example, if I read a tragic story, even a sumary can leave me troubled, sad and anxious. Or if I hear a story about in justice, for instance, I can flare up in rage almost immediately. The reason why this becomes my concern is I need to remain calm . I need to keep myself from being absorbed by emotions. My health is not good, even since I was a very little kid, there was a story that when my goldfish died, I cried and fell ill for over a week. There was a time, I watched an anime called “Black Bullet”. Its genre was tragic, sci-fi,… and it wrenched my heart to the point I felt like physical pain. It is very common for the bus drivers to see me read novels and weeped. Also, recently, I started to read “Gunslinger Girl” and it left me in axious and furious because I have been wondering that “Are there really so many trgic children abuse outside?”. I cannot find the answer instantly and became restless, and overwhelm with sadness. It does affect greatly in my normal life. If I am doing something minor, like taking a nap, playing games, or studying,… it is just feeble and does not need to think about. However, when i am facing with something important and difficult, like an exam, a job interview, or when I am sick, it can surely knock me out. Extreme feelings can cause me physical pain. That is why I need to control my mind carefully. If I slip too deep into something that can provoke my intense emotions, or I am not able to keep myself from being absorbed into other people’s emotions, I will do severe harm to myself. I want to be stronger, both mentally and physically.
Lastly, that is global warming. Personally, I believe that global warming poses as an immense threat for human’s survival. And yet, people seem to neglect to take action to prevent the worsen situation or reduce the harmful impacts of global warming. I heard my friend, who is studying in the U.S., said that there were many people denied that global warming happened. On “Climate science and policy watch”, we can see many articles that present information about the fact that there still are people who deny the climate change. This is my main concern because if people continue being ignorant like this, human race’s doomsdays is not far. As I notice the change in my place, I realize that the temperature is increasing a bit years after years. When i was in kindergarten, the months from October to December was cold and the sky was grey. However, now, we hardly feel the cold. The weather becomes unpredictable, and there seem to be a decline in rain each year. More devastating disasters occur all over the world. And I don not understand, why there are people who blindly refuse to open their eyes and see?! I know that the rising temperature on Earth used to be a normal and natural phenomena, and the cycles of life-supporting systems on Earth are able to keep things remain survivable. And when human’s industrial activity appeared, things have gone worse. I am not an extremist who thinks humans should go back to the Stone Age’s life, but I strongly want everyone to admit that global warming is real, and we need to act. There are many minor things we can do like using bicycles or public transportation, reducing the use of electric devices, supporting green and environmental friendly products,… We need to do something right now or it would be late.
In the end, those three mentioned above are my main concerns. I need to care for my personal growth to be a more useful andreliable person for this life.
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